Monday, June 6, 2011

Day what!?

Oh yeah. Didn't take long for me to totally F A I L. But, of course, I took a deep breath, shook it off, and I'm starting O V E R. This weight loss HAS to HAPPEN!!! I feel disgusting...repulsive, and downright GROSS. I'm not looking for compliments, or a pity-party...honest. It's just how I feel. I feel like I'm letting myself, my husband, and most of all, my children DOWN. It sucks! How am I supposed to be a good Mommy if I can't run and play with my girls? I also have Hypothyroid, and me sitting on my f(l)at ass doing nothing, is NOT helping one bit. I honestly think finding out that I had the disease caused me to mentally give up. I feel like all the work I put into weight loss will be in vain, and I will be trapped in this fat-suit for the rest of my life! I know that's not true...I know I really just have to work HARDER. I just don't want to. I want to curl up in a ball and cry. (Redonkulous...I know.) I am the Dictionary Definition of a WUSS. :P
To solve this "problem" I am having staying motivated, I'm joining Weight Watchers with my Mommy. (She's the best...) She totally doesn't need to go, can I just say! The woman is 61 (No, she doesn't care the I said that...) 5'1 and, like, maybe 120lbs? It's insane. She is healthier than I will ever be! I want to be JUST like my Mommy when I grow up! Such a true Proverbs 31 woman. (Grab a Bible, and read Proverbs 31 if you don't know what I'm talking about). Anyhoo. We start next week. Wednesday. I'm SUPER excited. I really think with her help, Weight Watcher's professional help, I can kick this weight to the curb, and REALLY make some lifestyle changes. I want the best for MYSELF, and for my family. This world is so full of JUNK, and I don't want ANY part of it! So's ON. PLEASE FEEL FREE TO COMMENT and help me get my BUTT in gear!!! I don't want to fail again...I really don't. Oh yeah, if I don't blog every day, it's because I'm taking care of my 3 beautiful girls and I'm just too busy/tired. Orrrr, I could be elbow deep in poop, and macaroni and cheese...:P

Until next time...thanks for reading! -Jamie